http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i_5zvV0btCo
gotta fucking love this tune!

profile

just read about my fucking profile wow that needs some serious updating man shows you how times can change !

1/11/2011

well, hasnt time gone by, ive lost quite a bit since ive last posted on here and ive got quite a lot to post about, ive grown a lot and realised who my true friends are, and that i need to stick to my goals if i want the life ive been longing for, i passed my army selection test which is a result and i have a date i go into my basic training on the 19th of march, just got to make the office aware of the fixed penalty that i got, im still full of emotion at the moment i cant really get rid of it... it sucks but least its not as bad as it was, its just like a feeling that i could of done a lot better for these past couple of years because ive just been swimming around, not doing very much and when something good did come my way, i managed to mess it up or drive it away i,e (jess), but thas ll in the past and like i said in my last post finding someone else is going to be difficult but i have someone on my radar, but its complicated which sucks

damn long time 6TH of September

God i havent posted on here for a while, its now september, havent posted since the eigth of may todays date is the 6th of september, and damn have things changed in my life theres has been a lot to digest, i dont think that i am going back to college, and ive split up with my long term girlfriend, but were still on good terms and im glad of that, i didnt want to lose her as a friend, i think dating again is going to be a tough road, but ill get there eventually , ive also got the army selection centre to look forward to i still need to get back on the horse in that repsect  but not yet ...
and i cant be assed finishing this post aha

8th may

ive just woken up and im knackered think i need to do my work today so i dont get even more behind, im sick of being behind and im going to try to enjoy my day today without being stressed out .

7th may

i cant be assed today facebook are being cunts for something that wasnt my fault, ive had a good day but im just generally frustrated !! i hate it when this happens my head just fills up with thoughts its like people do stuff to punish me or im always the one that gets accused for things, two swift words i can say, Fuck you all

college work

fuck me ive got tons of work to do, damn better log on and turn up because gills brief has to be in for tommorow and i havnet even started which is a total nightmare shit storm waiting to happen, i need the friday brief off jamie probs get bollocked for that, whcih i totally deserve from just pure laziness to be honest i need to buck up my ideas, i have to plan a powerpoint for a pitch also which may have to happen tommorow it all depends on me really

Random

AND THE SIGN SAID LONG HAIRED FREAKY PEOPLE NEED NOT APPLY (8)

job

mum ju8st got me number for a pub, lets hope they ring back !

Stuck in a rut..

Im not quite sure what i want to do at the moment, i want to carry on with college and get decent qualifications and get a good job that id like, but on the other hand weres my money coming from i basically dont have any, and when i do i jsut waste it on shit tbh with you, people are getting annoyed with me at the moment, mainly because i havent got a job, everythings going apply online and they only take really good candidates, i cant even write a half decent CV at the moment, i just really dont know were to start, because everything that i have basically started i have quit, i dont want to be that person for any longer, i want to be happier and lead an active life again, i want to get along with my girlfriend better and do stuff for her and buy her things again i dont want her to get disinterested in me, i feel as if im just plodding along at the moment in no particular direction,and it isnt a good feeling, ive not known what ive wanted to do for a real job since i left high school and now im not quite motivated for most jobs i need to find the source of mhy motivation and drive it back and i think that it would come if i first found, a part time job and started playing football again.

osama

well they have finally found him, and fancy that, hes 800 metres from a military training facility, and no one saw him!! i think it was all a cover up, there are corrupt people in the world, someone has got to have known, anyway there is going to be a inquest and i bet thats a total load of bollocks as well, least he cant hurt any more people, i just wonder what could go through a persons mind to be able to do some of the, things that he did, maybe its to do with religion maybe not... Fact is it shouldnt be happening period